Lately

Confused why am i feeling this way. the feeling of hopelessness, alone, unmotivated and stressed to everyday living. it's unlikely me but the way i am seeing things are, they are making me sad, confused and numb. it's the price i pay for the sins i committed and i can't stand up and pick up the missing pieces i lost. i lost my principle, pride, honor and my name by doing mischievous things. i can't help most of the day but whine, sigh and be sad. i tried drinking for quite some time, but it does not help. i can only sleep for a few hours and when tomorrow comes, the heartache is still there. i can only say these things here and i plan to bury it here on the world wide web. those people whom i have hurt and continue hurting must not know this. i feel my life is short that is why i want to be happy for most of the time but then i think its time to consider others as well. the question is now, how will i win them back?