Best wishes for you, Grave wishes to me!

after a tiring work from the office on a rainy wednesday night, i thought i could just eat and watch a tv program then sleep soundly but it turned out what i heard instead of saying "best wishes" i caught myself murmuring "grave wishes" to me. i keep telling myself that i shouldn't complain over a responsibility. however i feel depressed whenever the 15th and 30th occur because nothing is left to myself. it's all about them but honestly, i am getting tired of that statement, instead of seeing them grateful i feel being used. i don't know if i have to feel this way but honestly i am getting sick of this. i want to be free, do my own, spend my own and think on my own in which i feel i am forbidden of. hopefully after this night i am dumping some waste of words and emotions here, i will be ok by sunrise if not them i have to consult a sexy long legged B cup lady psychiatrist now.

Not letting the one to get away

Quoting the entry from my previous post The one that got away ...What do you do if it’s not yet too late? Simple…find him, find her. Because the very existence of a “one that got away” means that you’ll always wonder, what if you got that one?". my response to myself after reading that line "as long as we both hold on, we won't break away". apparently a test happened to us. in just ahttp://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif span of week, many things had almost changed. i almost lose the person i truly love. it took us a week of silence, an hour talking our hearts out and a minute of kiss to get us back. we may manage to surpass the first strong waves. looking forward to the strong waves, i just hope, our hands will fit and hold tighter as stronger waves happen.

I can't read your mind

like the lyrics goes sung by Cultured Pearls. i can't believe i am singing it again after quite some time. i really can't read her mind yet i hope she didn't had a change of heart. i miss her so much and i can't help myself missing her so much.

It's been a while

It's been a while since i last dump something about what i am feeling. i guess the fact that growing up makes the grouchiness brought out of me, but right now i have a mixed emotion and undirected life. i suddenly got lost in my life's transition. i have a good job, friends and family and special someone, i thought i couldn't ask for more but things got complicated as i move along. i have predicted before this would possibly happen but i never thought it's really this painful. the most confusing part is i feel like i have to choose between family and my special someone. i challenged myself to choose both but the difficulty i am having is the time to prove itself. the more i prove i can stand alone, the further my family goes (or was it just me feeling it. if i will choose my family, i will regret the rest of my life to let- "the one that got away". now i am torn physically, mentally and spiritually. i need a friend to go to but it's telling me i must not especially the decision will still fall on my hands alone.