Best wishes for you, Grave wishes to me!

after a tiring work from the office on a rainy wednesday night, i thought i could just eat and watch a tv program then sleep soundly but it turned out what i heard instead of saying "best wishes" i caught myself murmuring "grave wishes" to me. i keep telling myself that i shouldn't complain over a responsibility. however i feel depressed whenever the 15th and 30th occur because nothing is left to myself. it's all about them but honestly, i am getting tired of that statement, instead of seeing them grateful i feel being used. i don't know if i have to feel this way but honestly i am getting sick of this. i want to be free, do my own, spend my own and think on my own in which i feel i am forbidden of. hopefully after this night i am dumping some waste of words and emotions here, i will be ok by sunrise if not them i have to consult a sexy long legged B cup lady psychiatrist now.