Promises are meant to be broken. A quote referring to liars which i turned out to be one. I never thought amidst my strong principles, I broke it all down to the very least. First to my mom. Second to my girlfriend and to her family and lastly to myself. I am so disappointed in my life right now that I want to end it but ending it won’t solve anything. I need to regain their trust but I should trust myself more. Right now I am so down and needed someone to talk to. A person whom I could trust, a person who will never leave my side, I was so disappointed when the very person I trust, lets me down now-my mother. True I had let her down by not making true to my promises however I’ve been complacent that she would understand me, but I am so wrong. I almost forgot, family tradition is carry your burden alone. And so alone I will carry it for the rest of my life.
What hurting me more? Is that the person I love, got hurt by me. I was to blame in all the tragedies that are happening. I am far more to blame than her. I was the maniac and all and she just loved me. She has her fault by I am far more to blame by taking advantage of her weakness. I am such a bastard and I feel like one. I know i cause a lot of pain to everyone and I am not asking for forgiveness but to understand. It may sound a cliché but it’s the truth.
I am hearing her crying again. And it’s the fourth time and it’s the hardest one. How I wish I could stop her tears and carry her pain and walk with her hand in hand but I am the source of her tears and pain. The only thing I could do is to prove to her how much I love her. I know time heal all wound and it would take quite some time to heal but I do hope after a heavy rainstorm, a rainbow would appear.
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